Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
I’m beginning to think that when a person really changes (for the better), it’s really quite underwhelming. You can’t just change your attitude or the way that you are. But at the same time, if I’m managing my actions on an action to action basis and patting myself on the back every time I do something right, there’s no permanence to that, and I haven’t really changed at all. I’m still just as prideful and still as incompetent and inconsistent of a human as before. I suppose it takes time and a lot of self-reflection. If I’ve really changed, I won’t even notice that there’s a difference in what I’m doing. I’ll just do it. It’ll be a change in my inherency, in my nuanced, subtle living. I won’t even noticed I’ve changed at all. I won’t need to celebrate myself because I won’t know that I have anything to be celebrated about.
